Monday, January 25, 2010
New entry after zillion years. i suddenly have an urge to blog.. somehow miss blogging. feel that my life is getting a bit boring, perhaps i have no cca anymore... no trainings to look forward to, exams coming and i didn't really study very hard currently. Feel so sian to everything and there's no motivation for me to do anything. I just wanna lie on my small comfy bed everyday and have no worries about anything. No studies, No need to think about what kind of job i wanna work and every other thing. But is impossible cause life's not that easy afterall. All those that i've mentioned will only be achieved if i'm dead. ahhaa.so ya get back to reality.
Reality seems sad huh... My student gonna go back to taiwan and never come back to sg to study anymore and yet she DUNNO anything about it. Her grandparents and parents didnt tell her that when she go back to taiwan for cny this year, she wont be able to come back to study anymore. is so saddening that everyone lied to her that she can stay in singapore and play with her friends, see lovely tuition teacher-me who always make her laugh, participate in volleyball competitions and do her school proud. yea, she cant anymore and she DUNNO she cant. including me who is unable to tell her the truth. Her grandpa is sick and no1 is able to take care of her in sg. i do hope that there's miracle and she can stay here... but the probability is low. i will miss her.. 2 years with her... many happy memories that will keep within me.
Sometimes, i refuse to admit people are selfish.. but they are. Maybe sometimes i am too. Everyone has their own reason for doing this. They got hurt before? so they do not want to help because they might get hurt again or maybe their help was not reciprocated. Some worst, they just wanna take advantage of others because the person is so softhearted to reject them. Please! omg! Grow up those people, get your own things done and not copy other people's work! Study through your own effort and not others.. damn those people because they are not grown up. We are living in an unfair world, so i guess the best way to see all these is to think positive? You helped someone... yea so ya.
I dun wanna go out to work... i'm seriously not prepared for the outside world... is different finding a permanent job and part time job. A permanent job is one that u need to be interested in the job to work for long and this is not easy.. why? cause i'm not from a local university... who will want me? not alot i guess. You have to write many resumes, go through interviews to get a job, then work like mad in order to stay competitve or efficient in the job. is so complicated in the work society.. unlike school life. u can happy go lucky, study as and when you like, make many friends and your friends wont backstabbed you and stuffs. Can i be a little gal and live in my own world? wo bu xiang zhan da.... i dun wanna grow up... haiz...
Monday, January 25, 2010